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Daily Deviation
Daily Deviation
October 5, 2013
the 'd' word by ~MisfitableGrae Strong, open and personal.
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when i was seven years old, my mother, tear-streaks
drying on her cheeks, fingered her wedding band
and told me, “love hurts, sweetie,
that’s how you know it’s a good love.”
two days later, my father came back home.
he was missing his wedding ring
and when he left again,
he left a handprint on my mother’s cheek
that she carried with her even after the bruise was gone.
i grew up without a father influence in my mother’s world
and without a mother influence in my dad’s.
neither of them got remarried.
they had found each other and that was enough.
they had found each other and that was too much.
i grew up a thin string attaching one man and one woman
together in a way arguments and resentment could never snap.
they met in restaurant parking lots and in the bleachers
of my soccer games the way soldiers meet on battle fields,
trading me across the asphalt and steel like a
deadly weapon, a bullet hurdled back and forth.
he took me out to ball games but never for the right teams
and never called me his daughter,
like i was some community service project he worked
a weekend each month.
and he never called me on Christmas
maybe there wasn’t room in his life for Jesus,
like there wasn’t room in it for me.
i grew up knowing what seats in a court room felt like
and in what ways the word divorce, if flung just right,
can cut across the skin of the wrist and wipe away
the laugh lines on grown-ups’ faces.
i grew up hauling around a weekend bag and missing something
i never really figured out was never mine to have.
i bruised the tips of my ears with every
mean word i heard them say about each other,
and my friends would ask me which parent i hated more
and i never could find the words to tell them
i was tired of all the hate and i liked it best
when i was six years old
and my father came home from work and kissed my mother
and they tucked me in together and held hands in public.
back when mothers didn’t tell their daughters
to identify true love by the amount of agony it caused you
in order to try and convince themselves that
their husbands loved them more than
anything in the world and their daughters were their daughters
and not weapons of war, bullets zinging into
the sore spots that never completely healed.
the first time i ever made my mother cry
was when i asked her if i could go live with my father.
she sat down at the dining room table
and rubbed her empty finger and looked
around her empty house and sobbed and
and i went to my room and i stared at the wall
and i stared at the floor and at my bed and at the window
and the funny thing is, no one ever thinks
about how the bullet feels when it hits the flesh.
drying on her cheeks, fingered her wedding band
and told me, “love hurts, sweetie,
that’s how you know it’s a good love.”
two days later, my father came back home.
he was missing his wedding ring
and when he left again,
he left a handprint on my mother’s cheek
that she carried with her even after the bruise was gone.
i grew up without a father influence in my mother’s world
and without a mother influence in my dad’s.
neither of them got remarried.
they had found each other and that was enough.
they had found each other and that was too much.
i grew up a thin string attaching one man and one woman
together in a way arguments and resentment could never snap.
they met in restaurant parking lots and in the bleachers
of my soccer games the way soldiers meet on battle fields,
trading me across the asphalt and steel like a
deadly weapon, a bullet hurdled back and forth.
he took me out to ball games but never for the right teams
and never called me his daughter,
like i was some community service project he worked
a weekend each month.
and he never called me on Christmas
maybe there wasn’t room in his life for Jesus,
like there wasn’t room in it for me.
i grew up knowing what seats in a court room felt like
and in what ways the word divorce, if flung just right,
can cut across the skin of the wrist and wipe away
the laugh lines on grown-ups’ faces.
i grew up hauling around a weekend bag and missing something
i never really figured out was never mine to have.
i bruised the tips of my ears with every
mean word i heard them say about each other,
and my friends would ask me which parent i hated more
and i never could find the words to tell them
i was tired of all the hate and i liked it best
when i was six years old
and my father came home from work and kissed my mother
and they tucked me in together and held hands in public.
back when mothers didn’t tell their daughters
to identify true love by the amount of agony it caused you
in order to try and convince themselves that
their husbands loved them more than
anything in the world and their daughters were their daughters
and not weapons of war, bullets zinging into
the sore spots that never completely healed.
the first time i ever made my mother cry
was when i asked her if i could go live with my father.
she sat down at the dining room table
and rubbed her empty finger and looked
around her empty house and sobbed and
and i went to my room and i stared at the wall
and i stared at the floor and at my bed and at the window
and the funny thing is, no one ever thinks
about how the bullet feels when it hits the flesh.
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Disposophobia
Disposophobia
She had always kept everything. Ticket stubs, receipts, the torn-off edges of notebook paper. Any doodles or scribbled ideas, and any note afforded her by a friend were kept and saved. Not everything received the honor, but particular things from specific events did. She wanted to keep track of each and every thing she had ever done. She did so, on a corkboard encircling her room from floor to ceiling; each day had its spot, and one could trace her life along the wall with the zigzagging strings of yarn that connected each day.
She didn't often invite others into her room, for fear they might displace something, either by
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autopsy
her spine was cracked down the middle,
her skin unraveled at the seams.
bloated lungs and an emaciated heart filled her no longer moving chest.
her eyes were still open
and her hands stretching for the last thing she ever saw,
though she'd never reached it.
no one knew the exact cause of death,
except the shadow of a boy who avoided her funeral
like it was a plague.
like she was the plague.
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i don't think im alive enough to die yet.
we used to play russian roulette on dingy street corners,
cigarettes hanging from soot-blackened lips
and morphine running rampant through our drugged up systems.
i remember how i was always shot.
you ran away when i didn't die
and left me to bleed out
onto the cold concrete.
but you don't understand-
dolls and wallflowers are empty inside,
and hearts constructed hastily with broken matchsticks
don't beat true. it's just dull thumping
in a hollow chest cavity.
(and even the best dentists can't fill this one up.)
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Okay so the first stanza I've used in a poem before, but I didn't like how that one turned out so take two, guys. This poem is about divorce, and I would like to open with the fact that my parents are happily married and so completely in love with each other it's ridiculous and some points.
But I was talking to this little boy and I have the tendency to listen to kids talk and think, "They're so happy--their problems are so small and they have no idea what's coming." and this boy just stops swinging and asks me, "Do you like it when you get divorced from your family?"
And I said, "Well, I've never been divorced. Do you like it?"
And he said, "No, I miss my papa."
And I just think it's so sad because there's no solution for things like this and there's broken homes more often than not and there's a bunch of little first graders who know what divorced means, even if they don't know how to pronounce it and so I wrote this poem.
But I was talking to this little boy and I have the tendency to listen to kids talk and think, "They're so happy--their problems are so small and they have no idea what's coming." and this boy just stops swinging and asks me, "Do you like it when you get divorced from your family?"
And I said, "Well, I've never been divorced. Do you like it?"
And he said, "No, I miss my papa."
And I just think it's so sad because there's no solution for things like this and there's broken homes more often than not and there's a bunch of little first graders who know what divorced means, even if they don't know how to pronounce it and so I wrote this poem.
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