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cause i know
there are days when
it's painful to even breathe,
your throat closing up on the knowledge
that you don't know
how much longer you'll be waiting on this
band-aided, superglued planet.

every cell in your body vying to be the next to die,
and all you have to tell them is
maybe. maybe next time.

those are the days you spend
cutting rose thorns into your palms
and clenching your fists tight around
jagged reflections and prismed rainbows.
the days you realize
we're losing so much faster than we're learning.
we're maturing faster than we're growing.
adults stuck in the bodies of kids,
moving around, making the mistakes
no one ever wants to look back on.

those are the days you realize
it's not worth living here anymore.

you're using too many burnt-like sugar words
to get what you want, a mistaken human in wolf's clothing.
your lies are becoming louder than your screams,
but if the knife fits wear it on your skin.

this is the age where you feel caught between
cigarettes and skittles.
everything you should have been hanging in the balance
with everything you wish you were.
where your skin's too big and your footprint too small,
you're getting too tired, you're getting too old.

you're starting to realize
it's not worth living anymore.
my english teacher says that sometimes i mess up first and second person.

sorry i haven't been on in a while. have you ever had so many plans you think will go right but then life or something or people screw it all up and you just don't see the point anymore?

i just. i don't even know what to say on a website where i'm supposed to be able to say whatever i want.

if you're reading this, i don't want you to think it means anything—i’ve learned by now that i trust too many people i’m not supposed to.
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distopianatbest Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hey, I just wanted you to know that:
A. I'm here if you wanna talk. (I don't spend much time in the real world so I'll probably see your message soon after you send it if you send it.)
And B. You are amazing
AnotherPassenger Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
The title of your poem was used here <3
violetense Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Student
Your English teacher needs to realize that there are bigger things than grammar.
camelopardalisinblue Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Painful. Beautiful.
arabesque-o Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Student Photographer
this is so achingly lovely. it hurts in its beauty.
you worry me though<3
Allurite Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The stanza that began with you're using too many burnt-like sugar words was so beautifully written :heart:
tiajones Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i think the title is really original. i like it. (:
your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Student Writer
you're using too many burnt-like sugar words
That reminds me of something, I'm not sure what. But it has an aching sense of familiarity. It's so beautifully worded. I love the imagery.

(I'm a creep, I'll say it now, but I'm here if you want to talk)
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