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i.
there is a man on the corner of my street
who gave me a bottle of bleach
and told me if i drank it, i'd finally feel clean.

but i gave it back to him, and went home to take a shower.

because i am almost happy,
and i do not want to mess that up by
chugging bleach or fingering knives or thinking too much
about that man who turned my insides cold
from inside of his car.

because this has to be happy.
this has to be what happy feels like.
it feels like god gave me a vodka bottle
filled with nature and people and oceans and deserts and seas,
cause see, it feels like i'm drunk on life.

ii.
i have this nervous habit of scratching holes in my skin
and my mother says it's because
i'm trying to find something beautiful inside me.
she said i need a psychiatrist.
my friend asked me if i needed itching crème.

iii.
i keep laughing about stuff that's probably not funny.

iv.
i don't want it to rain anymore.
used to, i liked the rain,
because if i squinted, all the lines would be blurred.
now, i want to know where i belong.

v.
my father says this is a false relapse.
that i will fall back into whatever keeps me up at night
and holds the knife to my wrist
or the food off the plate or the fingernails to my skin
i tell him that if he can believe in a god he has never seen,
he sure as hell should be able to believe in me.

vi.
he says i might never be okay.
i'm not sure what okay means.
maybe it's like disney world and you can only
know when you've been,
but i also think that we are all broken
and the only reason we hate other broken people for being broken
is because it's not our broken, and maybe our broken pieces
are like snowflakes because we're all
precious and original on the insides, and when we break
we break differently, so we hate the different broken people
because they will never understand our type of broken
and we will never be able to understand their's.

vii.
today someone asked me if i was high,
because that's how dilated my pupils were.
i just smiled and told him that
i threw my bleach out with their expectations.
see, i was actually really proud of writing this almost happy poem, but then my mother got all mad ant my sister over nothing and she's crying in her room and asking mom to leave her alone and she won't and she keeps saying "psychiatrist" and it's just making everything worse,

so i am hiding in my room with a pillow over my ears because i do not want to hear my hero break.

i'm submitting this, because i think it's ironic.
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DrippingWords Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Student Writer
I loved it the first time I read it and I love it now.
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doublethefun Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013
Your writing is extremely relatable. You know how to touch your reader. Amazing work.
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jamberry-song Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Professional General Artist
A wistful and touching piece. <3 Things do get better.

Congrats on the feature.
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DailyLitDeviations Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013
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DailyLitDeviations Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012
Your wonderful literary work has been chosen to be featured by =DailyLitDeviations in a news article that can be found here: [link]

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artgeek99 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love part VI. My favorite (: Reading your poetry makes me want to be friends with you, honestly. It's super honest and on some level I understand, but at the same time I don't *really* know what it means, and it's like looking into a foggy window trying to see the real you. It's part, but it's nowhere near the whole.
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ChocoCoatedLemons Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
The author's comment. Wow. That's poetic in itself.
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jplgaara Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love the way you out words together. Absolutely amazing.
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Lacewinged-Beauty Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012   Writer

My absolute, most favourite part of this? The authors comment.

so i am hiding in my room with a pillow over my ears, because i do not want to hear my hero break

Absolutely beautiful.
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geralsv Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Absolutely loved the part about the broken pieces and the snowflakes.
Great job.
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