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i think you are lovely.
but i am not in love with you,
and by the fifth time you catch my eye and look
away just as quickly, i realize
that i cannot will myself into being so.
if love were as simple as a field of flowers,
i swear i would pick you a bouquet
of daises, and make sure that every petal you
picked off ended with ‘she loves me’.
if love were as reliable as the sun,
i would never stand so far away from you that our
shadows did not touch.
if love were as predictable as the weather,
i swear i would spend every storm
kissing you in the rain.
if love were as fair as Lady Justice
i would tie a scarf around my eyes
and spend the rest of my life blind
just to be able to feel the way our fingerprints
line up together.
if love were—
but it’s not, and i’m not—
in love with you, that is, and
you deserve a girl whose heartbeat plays
the Hawaii 5-0 theme song whenever
you walk into the room.
i know that isn’t me.
and i don’t know how we can remain the same,
when every time i see your smile,
i think about how i held your heart in my hand
for five years without even noticing
its weight and when you finally
spat out your truths, i dropped it
like it was so hot, like i was afraid it would
burn me—i was afraid i would have scars of your
heartbeat on my hands for the rest
of my life. to be honest, i think
i will anyway.
to be honest, sometimes i am mad at you
because i never wanted to be someone’s first love
or someone’s first heartbreak poem,
or the reason someone found it hard to breathe
or the guilty secret someone tells their friends about
in whispers and only when drunk.
i don’t want to be the thing you think about
only when drunk.
i don’t want to be the catch in your throat, or the heat
in your face, or your sweaty palms,
or your stutter and
or your broken daisy stalks.
i don’t want to be the petals strewn across
your floor, like the carnage of a hope you can’t
manage to shake.
you are lovely. you are so
lovely. sometimes, i wonder
if i have made your heart heavy enough
that the next person you give it to will
notice its presence before you even have
to say a word.
but i am not in love with you,
and by the fifth time you catch my eye and look
away just as quickly, i realize
that i cannot will myself into being so.
if love were as simple as a field of flowers,
i swear i would pick you a bouquet
of daises, and make sure that every petal you
picked off ended with ‘she loves me’.
if love were as reliable as the sun,
i would never stand so far away from you that our
shadows did not touch.
if love were as predictable as the weather,
i swear i would spend every storm
kissing you in the rain.
if love were as fair as Lady Justice
i would tie a scarf around my eyes
and spend the rest of my life blind
just to be able to feel the way our fingerprints
line up together.
if love were—
but it’s not, and i’m not—
in love with you, that is, and
you deserve a girl whose heartbeat plays
the Hawaii 5-0 theme song whenever
you walk into the room.
i know that isn’t me.
and i don’t know how we can remain the same,
when every time i see your smile,
i think about how i held your heart in my hand
for five years without even noticing
its weight and when you finally
spat out your truths, i dropped it
like it was so hot, like i was afraid it would
burn me—i was afraid i would have scars of your
heartbeat on my hands for the rest
of my life. to be honest, i think
i will anyway.
to be honest, sometimes i am mad at you
because i never wanted to be someone’s first love
or someone’s first heartbreak poem,
or the reason someone found it hard to breathe
or the guilty secret someone tells their friends about
in whispers and only when drunk.
i don’t want to be the thing you think about
only when drunk.
i don’t want to be the catch in your throat, or the heat
in your face, or your sweaty palms,
or your stutter and
or your broken daisy stalks.
i don’t want to be the petals strewn across
your floor, like the carnage of a hope you can’t
manage to shake.
you are lovely. you are so
lovely. sometimes, i wonder
if i have made your heart heavy enough
that the next person you give it to will
notice its presence before you even have
to say a word.
Literature
the arsonist
it is what it is.
I want to set that phrase on fire.
Pour some gasoline on each letter
till they reek of volatility
till they are itching for ignition, for agency
to burn and lick and singe.
I want to catch her mind alight,
each redwood-high issue to smolder
and I want each eye to brighten
like a freshly-stoked furnace
her words to be shot-off sparks
glowing in the night.
for every shrug
I want dynamite to liven
up the shoulders that have
lowered with the eyelids
till the whole body is a half-vision,
my kindle, these half-dreams
and one day I’ll find the match
to set the mind to passion
and she’ll wake up with a woosh,
a wild won
Literature
because i'm like a relapse (of you or youth)
baby blues cannot cure suicide agendas.
all these poets do is wither, wither,
waste - decomposing bones just
enough to trade them in for
words & kill them
cell
by
cell
&
conversations bloom between my tongue &
teeth or two choice vertebrae; thoughts
burst like blood vessels,
like self disgust
(i am more catatonic
than i am catastrophic).
Literature
To people that are poetry
Thanks for being
the poetry
I didn’t have to write
thanks for signing,
in beautiful ink,
on pages
that were
once white.
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written primarily for me because i thought i had a lot to say, but when i opened my mouth i couldn't think of a single word.
on an unrelated note, does anyone know what i could possibly write my college essays on?
i know school has mostly started for everyone, so keep your heads up, cheries, it'll get easier from here, most likely.
xxgrae
written primarily for me because i thought i had a lot to say, but when i opened my mouth i couldn't think of a single word.
on an unrelated note, does anyone know what i could possibly write my college essays on?
i know school has mostly started for everyone, so keep your heads up, cheries, it'll get easier from here, most likely.
xxgrae
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I feel like I've been on the delivering and receiving part of this. This poem gives a little meaning and reasoning behind heartbreaks, it makes us passionate, makes us feel, and makes us more human. I love the way you ended it with hope. So maybe the heavy heart can be viewed more precious, because it can be felt more...I love that thought.