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i have spent the past three nights shaking and
thinking about how many poems i would write if i knew
where to send them. don’t think that i’ve forgotten you,
please, because i promise i haven’t. i still remember how you
take your eggs on saturday and how you make yourself
fall asleep when it’s four a.m. and you don’t want to leave yet.
it’s more than that too, okay, i remember your body,
firm against my body, your voice in my car,
your hair ties around my wrists, your chest rising
and falling with every one of my heartbeats.
you were
all my poems. you were everything significant.
you were my late night tuesdays and the only thing that
got me out of bed on wednesdays.
you were too risky to let go of, you were always
too much to hold.
i’m sorry i don’t know your new address.
but i still have the old one on me somewhere, pressed
into the soles of my feet and the gaps between my teeth.
i remember who we were there, hiding behind
your garden shed and picking blackberries to stain our fingers.
i remember thinking that if i kissed you then, you’d taste how
purple looked, tart and cold against the roof of my mouth.
i remember thinking that i would never grow out
of the butterflies you gave me when you held my hand still
to read my future. i remember thinking that
i wanted to write the world down on a sheet of paper
and give it to you.
i remember thinking that i wanted to
kiss you then, purple lips and all.
so when i tell strangers that you helped me write my first poem,
i mean that you gave me the first secret i was too afraid
to tell anyone else about.
i didn’t know how tight i was holding the memory of you
until i realized it was time to let you go.
i got your letter the other day, and i wondered if
you still only drink champagne with your eyes closed—
i’m sorry,
i do not think i will be able
to make it to your wedding, but
i have the invitation pinned on my fridge.
you look happy and beautiful and dizzy in love,
and i can’t believe i missed that.
make a toast for me, if you notice my absence,
if you remember the length of my heart line,
if you sometimes wake up in the middle of the night
and taste blackberries at the tip of your tongue,
and if you don’t—
then i think that is, probably, for the better.
thinking about how many poems i would write if i knew
where to send them. don’t think that i’ve forgotten you,
please, because i promise i haven’t. i still remember how you
take your eggs on saturday and how you make yourself
fall asleep when it’s four a.m. and you don’t want to leave yet.
it’s more than that too, okay, i remember your body,
firm against my body, your voice in my car,
your hair ties around my wrists, your chest rising
and falling with every one of my heartbeats.
you were
all my poems. you were everything significant.
you were my late night tuesdays and the only thing that
got me out of bed on wednesdays.
you were too risky to let go of, you were always
too much to hold.
i’m sorry i don’t know your new address.
but i still have the old one on me somewhere, pressed
into the soles of my feet and the gaps between my teeth.
i remember who we were there, hiding behind
your garden shed and picking blackberries to stain our fingers.
i remember thinking that if i kissed you then, you’d taste how
purple looked, tart and cold against the roof of my mouth.
i remember thinking that i would never grow out
of the butterflies you gave me when you held my hand still
to read my future. i remember thinking that
i wanted to write the world down on a sheet of paper
and give it to you.
i remember thinking that i wanted to
kiss you then, purple lips and all.
so when i tell strangers that you helped me write my first poem,
i mean that you gave me the first secret i was too afraid
to tell anyone else about.
i didn’t know how tight i was holding the memory of you
until i realized it was time to let you go.
i got your letter the other day, and i wondered if
you still only drink champagne with your eyes closed—
i’m sorry,
i do not think i will be able
to make it to your wedding, but
i have the invitation pinned on my fridge.
you look happy and beautiful and dizzy in love,
and i can’t believe i missed that.
make a toast for me, if you notice my absence,
if you remember the length of my heart line,
if you sometimes wake up in the middle of the night
and taste blackberries at the tip of your tongue,
and if you don’t—
then i think that is, probably, for the better.
Literature
to read an alethiometer
dear moonfaced girl,
pig heart beating slow:
passion has never made the blood flow heavy
through your stagnant veins.
even the clean country air pollutes
your lungs
and tracing orion in the pinpricks up above on a clear night
won’t make your eyes look any prettier.
lies come easy on your tongue,
greed in your fingertips,
narcissism in every glance into the smudged silver
of a mirror;
you write poems
as though applying makeup--
everything in its place,
kohl thick,
mistakes purposeful and perfect,
all picked based on your mental snapshots
of the prettiest boys and girls.
you learned so well to show the world your beautiful portrayal
of s
Literature
Wait.
when each raising
of your coffee cup
takes both hands
and a strong gut
it’s awfully hard to
keep drinking
but there are
other, better days
when happy things
come easy as rain
smiles race
down window panes
and puddles of kept promises
kiss and play at my feet
and my hair is still
damp from those days
and I’ve learned
the patience necessary
to just wait.
Literature
dreamer
by all the gods,
is she lovely—
the sweetest lullaby i have ever heard.
and her fingertips soothe this raging nightmare
which roars inside, a decaying dragon
that one too many knights have slain.
if i could worship at her feet i would.
alas,
her temple is guarded by pale clouds and
a witch's moonlight; only ravens
may find their way into her tower
and break her chains with a featherweight kiss.
i do not feel her embrace every time the darkness whispers.
no, it is only when the ice in my veins
burns hotter than the sun and my voice is lost
in the supernova that hides itself behind a black hole.
it is only then that she is there,
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is this title even grammatically correct??? do i care??? :/ yes..... im sorry. i spent like fifteen minutes trying to google congratulations in/congratulations on/congratulations for and tbh i'm even more confused now. pls someone tell me and i'll make it right--i'll consider making it right cause its just plain embarrassing like this fcukk
so this poem was like mostly written after i finished my econ final and had nothing to do for the remaining hour. it's supposed to be kind of like getting a wedding invitation in the mail and then feeling all nostalgic because the person used to be like your best friend or something (i kinda added a bit more 'unrequited childhood crush' kinda thing to it...soz) and just realizing that you've lost contact with people who you thought you'd always have, who you thought would be in your wedding, etc. etc.
(does that even make sense?? is it too late to be trying to communicate??? yes)
clarification because i realize that the poem can sound like really?? creepy?? and stalkerish??? left by itself....honestly it wasn't supposed to be like angry or bitter or jealous, just more nostalgic and a bit sad. ya feel???
anyways happy holidays!!!!! almost a new year!!! new year new me!!! lmao who am i kidding!!! new year new you!!!
so this poem was like mostly written after i finished my econ final and had nothing to do for the remaining hour. it's supposed to be kind of like getting a wedding invitation in the mail and then feeling all nostalgic because the person used to be like your best friend or something (i kinda added a bit more 'unrequited childhood crush' kinda thing to it...soz) and just realizing that you've lost contact with people who you thought you'd always have, who you thought would be in your wedding, etc. etc.
(does that even make sense?? is it too late to be trying to communicate??? yes)
clarification because i realize that the poem can sound like really?? creepy?? and stalkerish??? left by itself....honestly it wasn't supposed to be like angry or bitter or jealous, just more nostalgic and a bit sad. ya feel???
anyways happy holidays!!!!! almost a new year!!! new year new me!!! lmao who am i kidding!!! new year new you!!!
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it seems like maybe I'm about to go through a bunch of your poetry and fave it without commenting, because it hits too deep for me to be coherent about it. I'm sorry. I always try to leave actual comments on literature, but I don't think I can express why I love this right now. But I do.