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April 20, 2016
gravedigger by MisfitableGrae is a great example of the epistle, or letter poem. Composed with startling clarity, outstanding imagery, and a truly heartfelt tone, this is one you will come back to again and again.
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dear sarah,
i wonder
if sometimes you can still feel the weight of your bed sheet
around your neck. heaven knows there were days i could count every thread.
last night i was cleaning up my desk, and i found the scissors
i used to crack my skin open four years ago
and when i went to throw them out, it felt like moving mountains
or graves. if you don’t know yet, you’ll learn that some types of grief
leave scars—some ghosts don’t know how to stay buried.
you will stumble through the rest of your life wondering if you will
one day forget how it feels to toe the edge of the cliff and turn the other way.
the answer is no. there is a precipice. there will always
be a precipice. a part of you will always want to throw yourself
over the edge. somehow, you never will. no one will notice.
to them, your race is over. you have cleared the last hurdle.
you have gone one month, three months, six months, a year without
turning your blue blood red. you have won your war. congratulations,
you have won.
i heard that today you opened the curtains in your room again,
and i hope the sun illuminated every freckle on your cheeks. people
like you and me, we deserve that kind of radiance. we’ve had enough
cracked concrete and overcast skies for a lifetime.
i’m glad you’re trying to come home.
when you get there, i swear there will be a place already set for you.
no one will be able to talk, they’ll have lost their voices from
how hard they were cheering for you. you were never as alone as you felt.
you were never as alone as you felt.
when you find yourself forgetting that, it helps to hold someone’s hand.
i’ve become an expert on things like that, on throwing out
my scissors, on visiting the cemeteries in my body and
placing irises on their graves.
i paint my nails in lilacs and pale blues and bright pinks
and never black and i always try to listen to one song everyday that
i can feel in my bones. when it takes me more than an hour
to get out of bed, i take the long way home.
i heard that today you put on two layers of clothes
instead of three, and i wanted to tell you that one day you will push up
your sleeves and forget to be ashamed of your own survival.
where you go from here is an empty road. it’s all about learning how
to drive again after you swore you were done.
i will write to you again, some time, i promise.
i hope this finds you always in
good health,
and smiling.
i wonder
if sometimes you can still feel the weight of your bed sheet
around your neck. heaven knows there were days i could count every thread.
last night i was cleaning up my desk, and i found the scissors
i used to crack my skin open four years ago
and when i went to throw them out, it felt like moving mountains
or graves. if you don’t know yet, you’ll learn that some types of grief
leave scars—some ghosts don’t know how to stay buried.
you will stumble through the rest of your life wondering if you will
one day forget how it feels to toe the edge of the cliff and turn the other way.
the answer is no. there is a precipice. there will always
be a precipice. a part of you will always want to throw yourself
over the edge. somehow, you never will. no one will notice.
to them, your race is over. you have cleared the last hurdle.
you have gone one month, three months, six months, a year without
turning your blue blood red. you have won your war. congratulations,
you have won.
i heard that today you opened the curtains in your room again,
and i hope the sun illuminated every freckle on your cheeks. people
like you and me, we deserve that kind of radiance. we’ve had enough
cracked concrete and overcast skies for a lifetime.
i’m glad you’re trying to come home.
when you get there, i swear there will be a place already set for you.
no one will be able to talk, they’ll have lost their voices from
how hard they were cheering for you. you were never as alone as you felt.
you were never as alone as you felt.
when you find yourself forgetting that, it helps to hold someone’s hand.
i’ve become an expert on things like that, on throwing out
my scissors, on visiting the cemeteries in my body and
placing irises on their graves.
i paint my nails in lilacs and pale blues and bright pinks
and never black and i always try to listen to one song everyday that
i can feel in my bones. when it takes me more than an hour
to get out of bed, i take the long way home.
i heard that today you put on two layers of clothes
instead of three, and i wanted to tell you that one day you will push up
your sleeves and forget to be ashamed of your own survival.
where you go from here is an empty road. it’s all about learning how
to drive again after you swore you were done.
i will write to you again, some time, i promise.
i hope this finds you always in
good health,
and smiling.
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California
My father was San Francisco and my mother, the Pacific;
at five I was in love with nine-lane highways, the scent of
eucalyptus pressed between my fingers, yellow parchment
hills crumpled up under the eye of the sun. If I had a sunset
to myself I would curl up on a park bench like the hippies do,
and eavesdrop on the sea lions’ bedtime conversations.
Alcatraz never quite unbarred me and yet I have found
freedom in hills steep as my shoulders; I know that I am
beautiful even in the rain because I have kissed the smoke
of Berkeley and tasted her on my teeth. I was born to
dangle my legs over Golden Gate Bridge and of course,
of
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psychosomatic serenade.
Schrodinger has been writing me
love letters, and he hasn’t. he
catcalls me from closed boxes
while I flip coins trying to figure
out what’s breathing, what isn’t.
your coffin, floating in earthen
rivers, hinges gleaming iridescent
as salmon scales, I am sitting here
guessing if the cat is dead or alive
in that imaginary vacuum, ignoring
Pavlov’s set ringtone on my phone -
the bells make me think of your
throat, how your Adam’s apple
rang when you swallowed down
another of my placebo promises.
I love, loved, you. and I didn’t.
Freud keeps dropping business
cards through the letterbox asking
my mother t
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here are my words
i used to dream whole cityscapes and skylines,
ocean cities and coves washed over with waves,
terrifying, brilliant, unable to touch me.
i used to be able to talk to trees,
to speak in palms and eyes-closed silences
and the sure roughness of bark under my fingernails.
i used to be able to sing
and believe that believing made me better,
believe that joy sounds bright and crescendos.
i used to be someone who tripped on her words,
spilled out in sloppy sentences and sentiments,
used to be someone who could 'sit at a typewriter and bleed'
and in bleeding turn the hurt beautiful.
i used to close my eyes and fall into feeling,
trace the right word
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a guy gave a speech to my school about how his friend sarah taught him determination or something because she won her fight against depression, and the entire time he was speaking, i was wondering how sarah was doing now. so i wrote this poem, from me to her because it was something that wouldn't leave me alone.
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Dammit I’m crying. Beautiful. Talented amazing human being that you are. Don’t stop. Please never stop