But I cannot hate him for his beliefs, like
He cannot hate me for mine,
Though I know there are some days we both want to.
But there's other reasons to hate the boy-
Hate him because once a long, long time ago
I thought I loved him.
But then we both grew up into
Real-world terms and opinions that were
Never made to fit.
So, some days I think I'm just making up for lost time.
There's this part of me that thinks he deserves
A 'Bad Poem'
Because he called me ugly all through sixth grade,
Insults my friends ("I'd like him, really Grace, I would,
But he's just so... gay.")
And expects himself to be all that's right in this world,
In my world.
See, I want to say that he whistles while he works like
The lost eighth dwarf in Snow White (which, for his height,
Is an accurate description) without mentioning
His sixty-seven community service hours.
Talk about how annoying his laugh is, without
Mentioning how often I hear it.
I cannot write him a 'Bad Poem' because Jeffrey Williams
has left BGA behind him, and in a way
I am writing his eulogy to my life.
And because of this, I should probably say that the
Sandy-haired, brown-eyed, freckled skinned kid
That competed with me over every little thing
Was one of the best I've ever seen.
'Cause maybe I'm a bit jealous.
Jealous of how he
Knows God like he knows the sun will rise
(I wish I had something like that.
An anchor to reality.)
Jealous of how he wins every single impromptu,
I'm better than you,
competition we have.
"Except words," he reminds me.
"You will always win the word battles-
And you know, it's almost funny, but I'm scared.
I'm scared that you'll write me into one of your poems."
Sorry about that, Jeffrey.
The one thing that both
Annoys and endears him to me,
Was that he never stopped trying to save
"Please, just let me drown," I say.
And he with his bible and his crusading cross,
Stumbles into the water with the word
Never on his lips like a battle cry.
See, Jeffrey is the kind of person
Who thinks everyone deserves to be helped,
Even if that person has forgotten
What it feels like to be Saved.