MisfitableGrae

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stormchaser by MisfitableGrae, literature

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stormchaser

dear sarah, yesterday I tried to swallow the sun. it burned me up on the inside until even my skin was hot to the touch, and I thought of you. I hope you have found better ways than me to feel lighter. heaven knows there are days where I still trade my feet for concrete blocks and try to sprint to the finish line, but at least I have stopped straying towards the riverbanks. at least I get out of bed. most days, that’s enough. but if you tell me that most days life still feels like a choice you’re making every minute, I will tell you that I understand. I have spent years trying to outrun my sadness, sipping sunlight until my vision blurs and looking up only to realize I’ve been going in circles and calling it progress. every escape I ever made is a town I can never go back to and I’m not better for it. I carry so many graveyards around inside of me, and I’ve lost count of how many bridges I’ve burned because I confused loving with leaving. take my sadness away, I don’t

i like to think you think of me by MisfitableGrae, literature

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i like to think you think of me

you didn’t come to the airport. i didn’t send the postcard. these are small defeats. easy to swallow, easy to look back at, to pinpoint what we could have done differently, things that would have yielded a different outcome. vary the variables, reset the experiment— you didn’t get me flowers. i didn’t remember your birthday. paper cuts, not amputations. too insignificant to be remembered past the day they happened. blame is a tricky thing. hard to hold in your hands. the first time you take cough medicine that hasn’t been sweetened. a bone that breaks and heals crooked. a load heavy enough that holding i

the myths i'll tell my daughters by MisfitableGrae, literature

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the myths i'll tell my daughters

i like to think eve and pandora fall in love with each other. and every god in every heaven is afraid of them, the women who taught men to sin and then get to be happy in the end. i like to think eve bakes apple pies to celebrate long weekends, that pandora always opens her birthday presents too early, that they get to grow old and stubborn and surly wrapped around each other with a fire in the living room and laughter just a breath away. i like to think there’s an after to stories like theirs, that the gods created them but couldn’t control them, that we pass our expiration date and outgrow our purpose but continue existing an

the third time i call, you pick up and i say by MisfitableGrae, literature

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the third time i call, you pick up and i say

yesterday i walked past the diner where we fell in love, and i thought i saw the waitress wave at me as i went by and i realized that the most terrible thing in the whole world would be you rereading all those text messages i sent you when i was stupid in love. those weren’t meant for you, okay, those were for the boy who split his milkshake with me and held my hand through an entire season of Friends and sat with me in silence on dirty rooftops while we smoked stolen cigarettes. look, i didn’t even mean to call the first time, but i was drunk and high and cold and my old favorite song came on the radio and i remembered how much

mistletoe by MisfitableGrae, literature

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mistletoe

it’s Christmas, so you sleep with him. it’s Christmas and your family is thousands of miles away and you’re lonely and it’s snowing ad he drove you home and he let you pick the first movie and he picks the second one, a comedy you’ve never heard of before and when he laughs, he looks at you to make sure you’re laughing too, so you sleep with him. and maybe you always thought you would be in love with the first person to bruise your body in places only you and the mirror ever see, maybe you thought he’d be younger; maybe you thought you’d be. maybe you thought the lights would be on or your unde

kairos by MisfitableGrae, literature

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kairos

on the day we are supposed to meet, i will be too sad to get out of bed. destiny will knock insistently on my door, will stick its head through the opening and call my name, softly and then louder when i do not respond. it will pick its way through the chaos of my bedroom, over shoes and socks and sweaters i haven’t worn in a week and shake my shoulder. i will close my eyes and roll over. i will have eaten too much the day before. i will have not eaten at all the day before. i will feel like my hands are only good for dropping second chances on the floor next to dirty underwear and last week’s failed midterm and half full cups

the moment you become more than a one night stand by MisfitableGrae, literature

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the moment you become more than a one night stand

it’s half gone four in the morning and i should be looking at nothing but the backs of my eyelids but i can’t bring myself to tear my eyes away from how beautiful you look with my bed sheets all tangled around your body and your hair all tangled around your face and your eyelashes brushing your cheek every time you blink like this will be the last time before you go to sleep, but our mouths haven’t stopped moving in one way or another since you locked the door for the night, and the longer you talk about your grandmother's favorite knitting pattern the more sure i am that it's too late to leave this room without leavin

toeing the edge of the rubicon by MisfitableGrae, literature

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toeing the edge of the rubicon

freshman year of college, i break the first rule of dorming with someone else: i touch her stuff. it’s october, and just starting to get cold. i wear a sweater and a jacket at all times now, but i’m always caught off guard by the rain. i don’t watch the weather reports anymore; this has something to do with why i am on my roommate’s side of the dorm, but i do not connect the two. it takes me an hour. it shouldn’t, but it does. i stop to look out the window, to examine my hands, to wonder why they are not shaking. i stop to write, but i don’t get much farther than “dear mom and dad” before

why i do not know how to introduce ed by MisfitableGrae, literature

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why i do not know how to introduce ed

some days i wake up and my stomach says, “i am hungry.” and my brain says back, “good; eat.” and i have breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and my brain says, “you are human, you are human, you are human, and this is what humans do.” and i feel okay and i do not think much about why this is strange. it is cereal at nine, a sandwich at half past twelve, and supper at a quarter to seven. on these days, my stomach is quiet and polite. my brain is also quiet, but with the intensity of one who is preparing for war. still, i never see it coming. then some days, i wake up and my stomach says, “i am hungry.”

an hour after losing by MisfitableGrae, literature

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an hour after losing

when i walk into the bathroom, with dawn breaking her fingers to squeeze her hands through the windows at the end of the hall, i am surprised to see a girl at the corner sink. i expected to be alone to wipe at my face, to press gentle fingers against the tender skin of my neck, to pull up my shirt and check the visibility of my ribs and the flutter of my heart, to stare at my eyes in the shitty mirror in the shitty lighting and calculate all the little changes that a boy’s hands can wreak on a body in under an hour. but she is there at the corner sink, scrubbing at her red and irritated cheeks like she is lady macbeth trying to eras

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stormchaser by MisfitableGrae, literature

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stormchaser

i like to think you think of me by MisfitableGrae, literature

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i like to think you think of me

the myths i'll tell my daughters by MisfitableGrae, literature

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the myths i'll tell my daughters

kairos by MisfitableGrae, literature

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kairos

an hour after losing by MisfitableGrae, literature

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an hour after losing

palimpsest by MisfitableGrae, literature

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palimpsest

1. “so have you, like, ever fallen in love with a straight girl?” she asks. “i bet it’s like, totally awkward.” i laugh and stutter through a no that comes out sounding too much like your name, and then you are there, slipping into my mind without knocking, like you have any right to come back unannounced. it has been months since you called. i suppose that counts as awkward, but when people say awkward, i think of teenagers skinning their knees tripping after each other, of the sound of knives scraping dinner plates during sunday supper— i do not think of your voice when you tell me you have found the

melisma by MisfitableGrae, literature

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melisma

i have heard that every woman is either ophelia or the queen, either too much or not enough, either drowning or swimming, either dying from grief of living with guilt. but i have run past enough finish lines in my life to know that sometimes you give up and sometimes you keep going until your legs hurt and your lungs bleed. what i mean is that i used to forget that there once was a version of me that did not know the twelve shades of blue in your eyes or what words to use to describe them. what i mean is that i still catch myself thinking about that time i saw you singing in your kitchen with your hair down, dancing around to the radio

what willy loman said by MisfitableGrae, literature

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what willy loman said

i keep trying to tell you that the woods are burning, the ocean is flooding, but you think it’s the summer heat and the summer rain and you think this is how it has to be but it doesn’t it doesn’t it doesn’t— and you don’t leave because you think we have time, but the smoke is a noose i could hang myself with and we got jewels and riches and coins but we don’t got a damn second.

an open letter to my twelve year old self by MisfitableGrae, literature

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an open letter to my twelve year old self

one day you will cut all your hair off, and hang up a map of the world in your room and you will look at it on days you think your life is going nowhere. i hate to tell you this, but this isn’t your worst year. it also isn’t your best. one day you will cut all your hair off and realize that some poems need to be read out loud, to an audience, so you’ll take a hammer and some nails and build yourself one out of a girl whose veins look fragile but whose bones are strong, a boy who isn’t as tall as he thinks he is, but whose lifelines are the deepest you’ve ever seen, and a girl whose eyes remind you of the east

peccavi by MisfitableGrae, literature

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peccavi

i think you are lovely. but i am not in love with you, and by the fifth time you catch my eye and look away just as quickly, i realize that i cannot will myself into being so. if love were as simple as a field of flowers, i swear i would pick you a bouquet of daises, and make sure that every petal you picked off ended with ‘she loves me’. if love were as reliable as the sun, i would never stand so far away from you that our shadows did not touch. if love were as predictable as the weather, i swear i would spend every storm kissing you in the rain. if love were as fair as Lady Justice i would tie a scarf around my eyes and sp

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In the Weekly Spotlight by LitRecognition, journal

In the Weekly Spotlight

Feb 13, 2019

This Wednesday, LitRecognition (https://www.deviantart.com/litrecognition) will be featuring the last week's Daily Deviations. They are wonderful pieces, and deserve that little extra boost of attention so READ THEM ALL!! Take a look-see, and give these wonderful people the Literature Community Love, if you haven't already! 2/7/19 Mercury-the-Queen (https://www.deviantart.com/mercury-the-queen) 2/8/19 MisfitableGrae (https://www.deviantart.com/misfitablegrae) 2/9/19 LaurenIpsome (https://www.deviantart.com/laurenipsome) 2/10/19 Kurt-Jarram (https://www.deviantart.com/kurt-jarram) 2/11/19 Atomograd (https://www.deviantart.com/atomograd) 2/12/19 InkyPages (https://www.deviantart.com/inkypages) 2/13/19 LiterarySerenity (https://www.deviantart.com/literaryserenity)

never say goodbye, only see you again :) by similar-singularity, journal

never say goodbye, only see you again :)

Mar 13, 2017

i've been on this site for 8 years, various hiatuses/different accounts. these last few months, i started a journey i never thought to endeavor before (in terms of spirituality) — and so, here i am. dA has been the greatest tool in developing my writing style. i couldn't be more blessed. writing was never a hobby for me, it was always a means to an end. and that end is still a goal/dream i am working towards. but somewhere along the way, i stopped growing here. i found my style, became comfortable with how i wrote, and stopped growing. i'm still writing (and will be for as long as i'm alive), but i won't be posting anymore. there is a

february in retrospect (2017) by and-speak, journal

february in retrospect (2017)

Mar 2, 2017

some gorgeous work this month <3 inthespacebetween (https://www.deviantart.com/inthespacebetween) we breathe indigo.bluejayandbutsoaquarius drowsydoe (https://www.deviantart.com/drowsydoe) bloody bleeding beautiful MisfitableGrae (https://www.deviantart.com/misfitablegrae) toeing the edge of the rubicon peaseblossoms (https://www.deviantart.com/peaseblossoms) an issue of perspective pansydiv (https://www.deviantart.com/pansydiv) cynical, arsenical, typical. runaway. sapphic and starwoven girls angelserum (https://www.deviantart.com/angelserum) empty self evaluationimpatient, irrational (rashes) gliitchlord (https://www.deviantart.com/gliitchlord) aphonia aflail we become clouds capital punishment thebalefulprimal (https://www.deviantart.com/thebalefulprimal) the end of an era, the beginning of a dynasty BleedingProphecies (https://www.deviantart.com/bleedingprophecies) Encore. RJBG (https://www.deviantart.com/rjbg) KICKING UP THE DIRT Orphically (https://www.deviantart.com/orphically) black girl magic.tiny, sideways infinities. Exnihilo-nihil (https://www.deviantart.com/exnihilo-nihil) Aux

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november in retrospect (2016)

Dec 2, 2016

i've decided that at the end of every month i will put together a compilation of works that i've saved to my "best" collection. they are works that deeply resonate with me, works that i feel deserve more attention. i will feature them here. here's to the best works of the month. utopia is a synonym for dystopia. by inthespacebetween (https://www.deviantart.com/inthespacebetween) living proof by celestialparanoia (https://www.deviantart.com/celestialparanoia) art history boys by pansydiv (https://www.deviantart.com/pansydiv) jarring clay by gliitchlord (https://www.deviantart.com/gliitchlord) spades by celestialparanoia (https://www.deviantart.com/celestialparanoia) an hour after losing by MisfitableGrae (https://www.deviantart.com/misfitablegrae) ethanol by pansydiv (https://www.deviantart.com/pansydiv) keep making beautiful work my friends <3 &

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Daily Lit Recognition for May 9th, 2016 by DailyLitRecognition, journal

Daily Lit Recognition for May 9th, 2016

May 9, 2016

Daily Literature Recognition for May 9th, 2016 Featured Author of the Day Suggested by: comatose-comet (https://www.deviantart.com/comatose-comet) Our featured author of the day is: MisfitableGrae (https://www.deviantart.com/misfitablegrae) :la: Suggester says: Narrowing down three poems from the superb gallery of MisfitableGrae (https://www.deviantart.com/misfitablegrae) is no easy task. A tremendous writer with a mastery of imagery and emotive language, it is difficult not to 'feel' along when reading one of her poignant explorations of the self. In particular, her writings about love and sexuality stir the heart but her entire gallery warrants close reading. An honest and free-flowing exploration of asexuality. "you were all my poems" A line t

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Senior Selections #83

Feb 2, 2016

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Fluorescent. by comatose-comet, journal

Fluorescent.

Jan 31, 2016

801 watchers?! Okay that's a crazy number - I don't think I've even met that many people in my life :faint: So again, thank you to everyone who has watched me since way back when (Iloveyouall:la:) and a big welcome to my new watchers - it's my final year of uni so uploads and replies will be a bit sporadic but I promise I will always get back to any notes or comments at some point! Anyways, here are some of my fave literature pieces I've come across on dA in the last few months as a massive thank you gift :dalove:

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gravedigger by MisfitableGrae, literature

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gravedigger

dear sarah, i wonder if sometimes you can still feel the weight of your bed sheet around your neck. heaven knows there were days i could count every thread. last night i was cleaning up my desk, and i found the scissors i used to crack my skin open four years ago and when i went to throw them out, it felt like moving mountains or graves. if you don’t know yet, you’ll learn that some types of grief leave scars—some ghosts don’t know how to stay buried. you will stumble through the rest of your life wondering if you will one day forget how it feels to toe the edge of the cliff and turn the other way. the answer is no

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About MisfitableGrae

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Artist // Literature

Jan 27
United States
Deviant for 12 years
She / Her

My Bio

wow do i vacillate between taking myself too seriously and not taking myself seriously at all. i'm from the south of USA, moving to the northwest of USA asap. the only pictures i like of me are profiles in bad lighting so u can only see half my face, apparently. i periodically submit poems. it might just, you know, take a little while, but apparently i'm always coming back. i'm eighteen now, graduating high school in a couple of months. um. i appreciate all of you guys so much i could never tell you enough.

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Favourite Visual Artist

Bill Watterson

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

lmao one direction who am i kidding

Favourite Books

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe

Favourite Writers

ok sorry fanfiction writers are so underappreciated i could go on and on about this

Favourite Games

....nose goes...

Tools of the Trade

Microsoft Word

Other Interests

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MisfitableGrae

Feb 2, 2019

phasing out but also not goodbye idk read the post

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good evening guys!! So I recently took down two of my most recent posts (I screenshotted every comment though, don't worry, I keep those always and forever) because I've started seriously looking into publishing. If I'm being honest, I have no idea where to start or what to do, but I think it's about time I learn how. Part of this is trying to find a wide and new audience for my writing. My friend months ago suggested trying to use instagram as a way to get more people interested and at first I laughed the idea off, but today I ended up going for it and creating an Instagram account for poems and poem pieces. I'm not sure how well this will

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MisfitableGrae

May 15, 2016

GRADUATION NOW. it's honestly so surreal, i've been hearing about this day for 13 years and now it's here and i'm graduating and alive and kicking.

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MisfitableGrae

Dec 6, 2015

exam time soon

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well, more like this week. and like, i'm scraping the bottom of the barrel on songs to listen to for exam studying and just for driving and things!!! please please please give me a couple of your favorite songs i really wanna talk music with someone!!! i'm like getting desperate now. support your local poet pls!!! i'll even like clap back with one of my fave songs or something :< pls thanks i love you so much

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KissingKate24

Apr 4, 2024

Hope you’re doing well. Saw you haven’t posted in a while.

Fun6years

May 30, 2022

hello are you still active on here?

achoohoo

Jan 27, 2019

happy birthday!!

literally thank you so much for like existing and writing and sharing everything that you do; i'm really happy that i discovered you and your work.

wishing you a wonderful day today

LiliWrites

Jan 27, 2019

Happy birthday! I hope the coming year holds too many treasures to count for you.

Happy Birthday!

Thank you for collecting given up by ghosts.

SandwichProtector

Dec 9, 2018

from one poet to another I have to say that out of all the poems I've ever read here or anywhere yours are the most compelling and profound. i cried reading them and that usually never happens. your writing is so raw and so beautiful and I can feel everything through your work. It's unbelievably powerful . Please never stop